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What’s with you and sharp objects?

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That’s what Paul said to me earlier tonight after I told him that I basically took a chunk out of myself while shaving this morning. I’ll consider it a good week if I end it with all my limbs/appendages.

Finally getting back into the swing of going to the gym. AKA I’ve been two days in a row. BUT, I haven’t wanted to go, so I’m considering it a success that I sucked it up and went anyway. Won’t be going tomorrow–I have an appointment with the chiro at 5. Hopefully it’ll be nice so I can go for a walk after work. Enough with the cold and rain. What is this, March? November?

I’ve been trying new things at the gym lately. Since I’ve decided that I just flat out hate running, I’ve been doing the stair stepper. You know, it’s really not that bad. I work up a good sweat, I can feel the burn, and I can tolerate it for 30-35 minutes. Plus, since it requires very little coordination, I can read while on the machine. Score! I also tried the leg press machine today. It’s silly, but I was always a little afraid of that machine–something about it just looked scary. But I pushed myself to try it today and I really liked it! Huzzah for trying new things!

Alright, my eyes are threatening to shut. Maybe I can sneak in a quick nap before Paul gets home….

Direction

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After a long (and sort of needed) absence from blogging, I think I’ve decided upon a direction for my blog.

I am not a fashionista…though I have made good strides towards improving my everyday wardrobe.

I hate working out, and trying to force myself to blog about it worked for a while, but then the excuses started again.

I love cooking, but having such a busy life right now doesn’t leave me much time to be creative in the kitchen.

All these things combined with the fact that my camera died on Halloween have left me with little to say and/or show. But after some nasty bouts with my self-esteem these past few weeks, coupled with regaining a bit (really only 5 pounds or so) of the weight that I worked so hard to take off, have led me to consider turning this into a weight-loss/weight-management blog.

So here’s the plan:

Sundays: Weekly meal plan. I’ve been planning our weekly meals lately, and it’s been helpful for the most part. But Paul and I are SO prone to throwing in the towel and ordering a pizza. NOT GOOD. So posting online will hopefully help me actually stick to the meal plan.

Wednesdays: Work-out Update. I’m usually pretty good about working out Monday and Tuesday, but then by Wednesday, I hit a wall. Hopefully this will give me the drive to finish out the week.

Saturdays: Weekly Weigh-In. When I did Weight Watchers (well, I still follow the plan, but I just don’t attend meetings), Saturdays were my weigh-in days. While I’m not going to post my actual weight (I am a LADY, after all! 😉 ), I’ll be posting the +/- numbers. My hope is that this will keep me accountable for weighing in (I’ve been afraid of the scale lately) and following the plan.

There will likely be more posts throughout the week, as I’m still trying to see myself in this not-so-new-anymore body (I’ve kept the weight off for almost 2 years now!). I’m getting more confident, and I’m beginning to realize that my pants are a size 4, not a size 12. My shirts are a small, not a large. There have been days lately when I feel really good about what I’m wearing and how I look and feel, and I really want to document those times so I can look back at them and know what makes me feel a little bit better. Once I have a new camera (Black Friday, here I come!), I’ll be posting some more pictures.

There you have it. Hope you decide to stick with me. 🙂

I’m developing a language and I’m calling it my own

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Okay, so maybe not a language, but a new life…sort of.

This post has been in the making for a long time now. But now that I actually sit down to write it, I don’t really know what to say (that always seems to happen). I started work last week. I’ve looked through all of my files, and I made the first version of my schedule. Now I’m just waiting for the teachers to write back with revisions. So far, it hasn’t been too bad. Most people understand my motives for taking kids during their classes, and they’re happy to work with me. I’m anxious to start seeing kids, mostly because I’m tired of sitting in my office staring at the computer. But on the other hand, starting to see kids means that it’s suddenly real. In general, though, I’m really enjoying my job. I really like my co-workers. It’s so obvious that everyone there loves their jobs, and they have so much fun with one another. Everyone has been really welcoming, but I’m really going to have to force myself to break out of my shell and meet people. It’ll be hard, especially since my office is hidden on the 2nd floor (with the health classroom, the fitness room, and the wrestling mat room…so clearly the 2nd floor doesn’t get used much), and it’s always rather tempting to just hide myself up there.

Aside from work, the new apartment is really great. It’s not entirely put together yet, but it’s getting there. Just a few boxes of random things floating around. We have a lot of wildlife around…. There are always geese camped out in front of my building and in the parking lots. They’re completely oblivious to people and cars. I’ve almost run over a couple of them because they just don’t move! For anything! So there’s always goose poop on the sidewalks, which I thought was bad enough, until I encountered a couple of skunks wandering around. But today, just to brighten things up on the nature front, I noticed a family of Blue Jays living in the trees behind my apartment. So pretty.

I’m getting settled into the suburbs, too. I’m finding my way around pretty well, and I haven’t been too overwhelmed by traffic. I’ve found the magical time to leave my apartment in the mornings to minimize my commute (7:16am, according to my car clock). Have yet to find the magical time to leave school in the afternoons, however. I don’t think there is one.

I’ve been wanting to reinvent my style a bit. Thanks to a generous gift card to The Limited from Kelly and Jamie from graduation, I’m on my way there. But not having money is a real bummer otherwise. Especially when people (coughELENAcough) post cute pictures of fashionable clothes, and post links to fashion blogs…. Makes me want to go shopping. And lose weight so that I can actually look good in cute clothes.

I’m really unhappy with my body right now, but I’m so unmotivated to lose weight and work out to actually change how I feel. And the more I dislike my body, the more I tend to eat. Ah, to have self-control. I feel very much like I did before I started WW, and it’s just no fun. Someone give me some motivation.

Okay, I need to go do things instead of sitting in front of the TV all day.

Motivation

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There are so many parts of who I am and who I’ve become that I really don’t like. This is the motivation behind my New Year’s resolution.

There are far too many times that I think back on something I just did and say to myself “Well, that was stupid of you.” Other times, it takes something bigger for me to realize mistakes I’ve made or things I’ve done badly. Either way, I don’t like knowing that I’ve done something regrettable. I don’t like knowing that I’ve done (and still do) things that aren’t indicative of the fact that I am a Christian…and that I strive to live a good Christian life.

I think part of the problem is that I lack the motivation to change myself. I don’t care enough to change the things that I don’t like. But those facts are no longer true. I have the motivation this time. I will make myself better. I will start leading a better, more mature, more admirable Christian life.

So, Self, file these experiences away for future reference. Always remember them, but never repeat them.