Things that scare me

19 08 2008

Just a list of things that have been scaring me/keeping me up at night the past couple of weeks. In no particular order.

1. The fact that I hurt my ankle over the weekend, but don’t know how.

2. The amount of hair I lose while showering every morning.

3. My knees have started to hurt again when I run…even on a track surface.

4. Having to tell my brother that I’m physically unable to run the half marathon with him in September.

5. I feel like I’m becoming a luke-warm Catholic.

6. Starting school next Monday.

7. Not having a hospital internship for next summer.

8. Not having a school internship for next spring…and the thought of having to do a school internship, period.

9. Getting married.

10. The lack of motivation/drive that I’ve had over the past two weeks. I barely even left the apartment today.

11. Gaining weight.

12. Falling out of touch with friends.

13. Failing…in so many various ways.

14. Having one of the same clients that I had this summer.

15. Random health issues.

*sigh* I hate that I have so much plaguing my mind right now. The semester hasn’t even started yet, and I’m already worried about too many things.





Of course you know, this means war!

1 08 2008

Alright, Sock Goblin. This time you’ve gone too far! It started with my SmartWool running sock. Just one of them. You even had me blaming mom for its disappearance. But then  you had to go and take one of my black-and-white-striped knee-high socks AND one of my snowman slipper-socks. You couldn’t just leave it alone, could you? You couldn’t just take one of my plain white tube socks, could you?

Oh, scratch the snowman sock. I just found it. BUT the running sock and the knee-high sock are still missing! I WILL avenge their disappearance.





Ambishun: I haz it not

30 07 2008

If I had the time/energy/drive, I would really like to do a study on code switching on the internet (in e-mails, chats, facebook walls, etc). Just something I think about from time to time.





It’s all in the jeans

29 07 2008

I hate pants. I hate shopping for them, trying them on, buying them (and returning them 2 weeks later), and wearing them. My life would be so much simpler if I could just wear elastic-waist sweatpants at all times. Or skirts. I suppose that’s an alternative.





It’s all so real now….

29 07 2008

Paul and I set a date this weekend. It’s 14 months away, but it feels so real now that there’s a day. I actually have to do things now. I can’t just sit around and twiddle my thumbs and dream about wedding stuff…I actually have to plan things and make decisions. Scary. I know I have over a year to make these decisions, but I know myself…if I don’t do things early, I’m going to end up waiting until the last minute. So I need to get started now.

And in a month, I have an appointment to look at wedding dresses. Holy crap that’s scary. I know that I don’t have to buy anything that day, but it’s still a little overwhelming to think about. My mom, my aunt, and maybe (hopefully) my cousin will all be there and I think maybe I’m more excited to spend time with them than I am to try on dresses.





I should probably do something about that…

22 07 2008

I hate calling places. Really hate it. I hate calling for take-out/delivery, I hate calling to make appointments/reservations, I hate calling to schedule clients. Ugh. It just makes me really anxious. My stomach gets all tied up in knots, my voice takes on an unnatural quality, and I never know what to say. I rehearse what I’ll say to the person on the other end, but what if it doesn’t go the way I rehearsed it? What if they answer the phone differently than I expect them to? What if they ask me a question I wasn’t prepared to answer? What if I can’t understand the person on the other end (this is particularly problematic when ordering ethnic food)? What if I dialed the wrong number? What if I’m calling when the person is busy? There are SO many ways for things to go wrong.

I should really get over this. It’s going to be next to impossible for me to plan a wedding with this kind of irrational fear always eating away at me, sitting in the back of my mind.

I had 3 phone calls to make this week. I successfully completed one yesterday. I did another just now. All that’s left is to call the Rectory at my home parish and try to schedule an appointment with Fr. Greg. But what if he’s not there (which I don’t think he is)? Do we even have a secretary at St. Mary’s (I don’t think we do). He’s not going to know who I am…how do I tell him who I am? What if I have the wrong number to call and I end up disturbing someone? What if I’m too awkward? AGH. I have the number typed into my phone…I just have to hit the “send” button…but I can’t do it!

Holy crap, I’m neurotic.





I’m a big girl now. See my big girl shoes?

20 07 2008

Lots of celebrating this weekend. It was pretty spectacular. Dinner with the Sullivan side of the family on Friday to celebrate my birthday and to surprise them all with the news that I’m engaged. Also found out that my aunt’s dissertation is being published…in book form. So that was exciting. Jamie and Kelly got me a lot of really sweet wedding planning stuff. I’m super excited.

Went out with my girls on Saturday night. Dinner and drinks at Graze, followed by a FREE (!!!) Big Ass Ice Cream Pie which was probably the best idea EVER. We saw Mamma Mia, which was good…but not as good as I wanted it to be. Erin hated it. Sorry Erin.

This morning, I asked Jamie if she would like to be my Bride’s Attendant. She seemed excited. I hope she was. I really hope she knows how much I need/want her help in planning my wedding.

I’m a little homesick. I always hate coming back to school after a relaxing weekend at home. *sigh* Time to do paperwork and go to bed.

Me with the Big Ass Ice Cream Pie.... Over 2 POUNDS of ice cream. Heck yes.

Me with the Big Ass Ice Cream Pie.... Over 2 POUNDS of ice cream. Heck yes.





The (very long) Story

14 07 2008

I think most people who frequent this blog (if not all) are aware of the change in my Facebook relationship change (because it wasn’t official until it was on Facebook…HULLO!), but for any blog-lurkers I may not know about: Paul and I are engaged!

I do know, however, that not everyone knows the full story, so here goes:

Several weeks ago, I made 3 requests of Paul regarding our engagement: 1) That I get a big sparkly ring (to which he said “Yes”), 2) That I look nice when he propose to me (to which he said “Sure, I can put you in a nice situation), and 3) That there be a camera present to record the moment (to which he said “Yeah, I can bring my sister’s camera down with me”).

Earlier last week, he asked if I’d like to go to The Bread Company with him over the weekend. I said sure and suggested we go with Nick and Amy on Saturday night for my birthday dinner. He said no, he’d rather go just the two of us.

On Thursday, when he came into town, he told me he had brought his sister’s camera down with him so that he could take pictures of campus for a screensaver on his new work computer.

So, between those two things (and the fact that Paul was checking the weather obsessively all day Friday), I was getting really suspicious. I even told Amy in lab on Friday morning that I was kind of expecting it that evening.

Friday evening rolled around and Paul and I got dressed up and went out to a very nice dinner at The Bread Company, wine included. Part of Paul’s dinner ended up on his shirt, so we left the restaurant and walked across campus to Walgreens to get some Tide-To-Go to attempt to salvage his shirt (mission: accomplished). Once his shirt was presentable, we walked to Moonstruck for dessert. We started talking a bit about engagement/wedding things, and he told me that my ring wouldn’t be in for another 6-8 weeks because they had to have it sized down to fit my tiny seven-year-old fingers. I told him I was upset…that I had kind of been expecting it that night, since all the pieces were fitting. And then I got more upset and reminded him that I had pushed him to get the ring earlier because I knew it would take a while for it to come in and if we waited for two more months, then that wouldn’t leave us much time to plan a wedding if we were planning it for Fall 2009, blah blah blah, insert pre-engagement bridezilla moment here.

So, we left Moonstruck. I was very unhappy and wanted to go home. Paul said he still wanted a couple of pictures of campus at night, in particular the amphitheater at Krannert. So, we walked over there, climbed the (almost) empty stairs (there were a couple of kids running around, but they cleared off shortly after our arrival), and I sat and sulked while he took pictures. He came and sat next to me and asked me to cheer up. I made some bratty remarks before finally saying “I just don’t understand why you’re dragging your feet on this. Are you ever going to propose to me?” He smiled and reached into his pocket and said “That’s a very good question.”

Me: “Are you being me to me?”

Paul: “Maybe….”

Me: “You’re being mean, aren’t you!”

Paul: “Maybe….”

Me: “You’re the meanest boyfriend ever!”

Paul: (while down on one knee) “Carly Sullivan, will you marry me?”

Me: (crying and hitting Paul wherever I could reach)

That touching moment was followed by hugs and kisses. And then…

Paul: “Oh by the way, I forgot to bring socks this weekend. We’ll have to go to Meijer.”

We called our familes. My dad’s exact response when I told him Paul had given me an engagement ring was “Oh. My. God.” Mom was crying and could barely form words. While I was talking to mom, dad shouted in the background “Did she say yes?” I said of course I did! I hung up with mom and then realized… OH CRAP! I hadn’t said yes! So, I quickly told Paul that yes, I would marry him. And then we resumed calling our respective families.

So, that’s the very long, very detailed story. Hope you enjoyed it. I know I did….

Oh, and the ring is gorgeous, and it really will take another 6-8 weeks for the ring that’s my size to come in. In the meantime, I have a “loaner” ring (it’s exactly the same, just a sample size) that I’m terrified I might lose.





Debbie Downer has a birthday

10 07 2008

Can I skip my birthday this year?

 

I’ll elaborate when I can put my thoughts together coherently.





Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise

7 07 2008

Paul and I had a very nice celebratory weekend. We went out to Monticello, had a picnic dinner (the pasta salad was a hit) and watched the fireworks on Thursday night. They always put on a great show. It’s always about an hour long with a crazy grand finale. I managed to catch a few good pictures before my camera died. This one is my favorite:

Friday night we went to the Drive In to see Wall-E. It was a really cute movie and I enjoyed it more than I thought I would.

Saturday, we went out to a nice dinner/dessert/drinks to celebrate Paul’s new job. Dinner at Radio Maria was fabulous, as usual. Drinks and dessert at Crane Alley were also top-notch. The creme brulee cheesecake was worth every single calorie. Our waiter at RM was pretty cool, and he agreed to take a picture of us after dinner. Probably one of my favorite pictures of the two of us to date:

Aren’t we adorable? :)

Okay, I’ll end my weekend update post now. Just wanted a reason to post some pictures..and a reason to procrastinate…. Mission(s) accomplished.